I'm not sure how well this is going to play out. Honestly spell check and everything else is out of the door too. This is a private conversion between me and who ever reads this.
Friday was full of i don't know because I slept. Though Friday evening I felt something come on like you would not belive. It was my first episode. I felt like I was dying. I'm not kidding.
Family has been very good at calling and making sure I'm okay. Although I haven't spoken to many, mike has. Yesterday the shooting whatever kept coming. I've been fully medicated. I have no idea what I'm taking and barely notice when I even take them. My food intake is a minimun. I'm sleeping, which is nice. BUT I think My husband is exhausted.
I'm feeling some discomfort in my cheeck, in my nose my whole head, and I'm watching the world spin before my eyes. I am legally high. I see wires in my nose and it's looking a bit different.
The people at the church have been praying for me often. They brought food to us yesterday and I'm sorta hoping they bring a little but more. I can't stand long enough without feeling dizzy. Mike refuses that I skip my meds because of the overwheleming pain that happens.
I really have no clue as to what I'm writing but the sponge says it's wet. Anway, if you call I can't speak very loud as some have realized. I get headaches quit frequently but know that I'm not ingnoring you but only trying to avoid the visions of circle dancing in my head. Night all.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
quick note
It gets pretty bad when it comes. A couple of sisters from the church brought us a lunch for the family. I'll try to catch up later.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Through the night.
Well I must say I've slept better then I have in months. I am having some pressure but nothing more then I had before. There is some drainage in my nose, my eye sight seems a bit better (at the moment). My sight was getting pretty bad the last month or so.
Overall, I think I've had great improvement in the past 24 hours. Especially knowing that the pain isn't any worse then what it was before. Shockingly, I've been able to tolerate most of it.
uumm, I think I may have dosed off. Going to go rest.
To the family, you can call today if you'd like. Only thing is that I can't really talk so loud. We love you guys!
Overall, I think I've had great improvement in the past 24 hours. Especially knowing that the pain isn't any worse then what it was before. Shockingly, I've been able to tolerate most of it.
uumm, I think I may have dosed off. Going to go rest.
To the family, you can call today if you'd like. Only thing is that I can't really talk so loud. We love you guys!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I'm alive!
*Warning* Graphic images!
If you don't have the stomache for this you may not want to read and/or view.
I am having some discomfort but over all I'm doing better then I have the last 2.5 months. I'm a bit groggy and medicated. My face looks like a basketball from the swelling, my neck as well. The people there were awesome. They were litterally in shock that I wasn't nervous. Are you kidding, why should I have been? I've been waiting for this day far too long. They were alot faster then they expected to be which is great. Dr. Rinaldi Started the surgery at 10:30ish and was done in 2 hours. My recovery time was 45 minutes.
*PLEASE NOTE* After the next paragraph I will be posting the pics. I warned you so viewer beware!!!!!
It was the coolest thing ever! I was thrilled to be able to get pictures of it all. The first thing I told the nurse was, "This IS so cool, I'm going to post it on my blog!". She responded by, "Honey I don't think your friends are going to want to see it." I chuckled and then realized that she may be right; for some. BUT for me it was a HUGE deal. I am pleased to announce the pictures of relief! Thank you all for your prayers! Continue to pray for me as I am now waiting on results of the Biopsy.
1)This is when they began to pull out the fungus.
2)They were still removing it from my nose. It's this awesome! I LOVE this stuff! Some of the white stuff you there is bone and some are polyps. I LOVE this stuff!! Yes I repeated myself. lol!
3)Last picture, well not really I have a few more. I'll stop here though. This is the suinus that was filled with Fungus. It is now gone.
Mike calls this "The Thing".
The mushrooms have come to an end.
If you don't have the stomache for this you may not want to read and/or view.
I am having some discomfort but over all I'm doing better then I have the last 2.5 months. I'm a bit groggy and medicated. My face looks like a basketball from the swelling, my neck as well. The people there were awesome. They were litterally in shock that I wasn't nervous. Are you kidding, why should I have been? I've been waiting for this day far too long. They were alot faster then they expected to be which is great. Dr. Rinaldi Started the surgery at 10:30ish and was done in 2 hours. My recovery time was 45 minutes.
*PLEASE NOTE* After the next paragraph I will be posting the pics. I warned you so viewer beware!!!!!
It was the coolest thing ever! I was thrilled to be able to get pictures of it all. The first thing I told the nurse was, "This IS so cool, I'm going to post it on my blog!". She responded by, "Honey I don't think your friends are going to want to see it." I chuckled and then realized that she may be right; for some. BUT for me it was a HUGE deal. I am pleased to announce the pictures of relief! Thank you all for your prayers! Continue to pray for me as I am now waiting on results of the Biopsy.
1)This is when they began to pull out the fungus.
2)They were still removing it from my nose. It's this awesome! I LOVE this stuff! Some of the white stuff you there is bone and some are polyps. I LOVE this stuff!! Yes I repeated myself. lol!
3)Last picture, well not really I have a few more. I'll stop here though. This is the suinus that was filled with Fungus. It is now gone.
Mike calls this "The Thing".
The mushrooms have come to an end.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I live because he died for me!
I went to the Dr. today and I now have my surgery tomorrow am! There are a few things they have to fix.
One, of course is the Fungus. They will be going behind my eyes and throat. As I mentioned before it’s fully covering my left side.
Second, he will need to repair the damage to my nose. It is now broken and he assumes it’s from the fungus. That will be cosmetic, which obviously means a nose job!
Thirdly, He will have to remove tissues from the higher inside part of my nose. This one is called a deviated spectrum or something to that degree.
This is the major thing that must be answered immediately. He was able to see 10-15 pre cancerous polyps. Once noticed it then brought great concern. He then asked if I was able to have surgery in the am. What was I to do but say yes! This is what I’ve been waiting for! He never had the chance to ask twice. As soon as the polyps are removed they will be sent for a biopsy. I’m praying that the Lord grabs hold me and brings back a postive report.
The Doctor said that since I so clearly understand pressure, that he’ll be blunt. He said I was going to be in some serious pain for about 3 days. Thank you for finally putting it down for me! Now that’s honesty!
I will ONLY update on here for the next few days. Mike will be home to watch the house. Yep I need prayer for that too! Dear Lord, can you please make sure he at least cleans the table? LOL!! Come on now you know men and more so when they are left with the reasonability of taking care of children too!
The people at church have asked if they could do anything. They will only be a phone call away if Mike can’t hold the fort down. Guess who I’ll be calling?
Oh and please restrain from calling tomorrow. I won’t have much of a voice.
Let me say one last thing! What kind of nose should I get? Keep the prayers coming because I’m going to need them for the biopsy! Oh the power of prayer!
PS. Did I mention I'm getting a nose job?!
One, of course is the Fungus. They will be going behind my eyes and throat. As I mentioned before it’s fully covering my left side.
Second, he will need to repair the damage to my nose. It is now broken and he assumes it’s from the fungus. That will be cosmetic, which obviously means a nose job!
Thirdly, He will have to remove tissues from the higher inside part of my nose. This one is called a deviated spectrum or something to that degree.
This is the major thing that must be answered immediately. He was able to see 10-15 pre cancerous polyps. Once noticed it then brought great concern. He then asked if I was able to have surgery in the am. What was I to do but say yes! This is what I’ve been waiting for! He never had the chance to ask twice. As soon as the polyps are removed they will be sent for a biopsy. I’m praying that the Lord grabs hold me and brings back a postive report.
The Doctor said that since I so clearly understand pressure, that he’ll be blunt. He said I was going to be in some serious pain for about 3 days. Thank you for finally putting it down for me! Now that’s honesty!
I will ONLY update on here for the next few days. Mike will be home to watch the house. Yep I need prayer for that too! Dear Lord, can you please make sure he at least cleans the table? LOL!! Come on now you know men and more so when they are left with the reasonability of taking care of children too!
The people at church have asked if they could do anything. They will only be a phone call away if Mike can’t hold the fort down. Guess who I’ll be calling?
Oh and please restrain from calling tomorrow. I won’t have much of a voice.
Let me say one last thing! What kind of nose should I get? Keep the prayers coming because I’m going to need them for the biopsy! Oh the power of prayer!
PS. Did I mention I'm getting a nose job?!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
What boogers? It's fungus!
Did today fly by or was I in shock over all the news?
I had my appointment at 11:00. My Dr. wasn’t able to do much because none of my paperwork was in the medical record, not even the CT scan! How the world is does that happen? Oh wait, we’re in the military, it always happens.
He stuck a 6 inch pipe thing up my nostrils. This makes 3 different sizes up my nose. Anyway, I had some pain but not nearly like I did when I had those 12 inches go up there! He probed a little and quickly discovered that my nose is broken. So now that too is going to need repair! He asked if I could quickly get my hands on the CT scan. Well lucky for me my husband works in the clinic! Of course I can.
I went to base and within minutes there were 2 corpsmen, 1 LT and a commander on top of it. I was out of there within 30 minutes. I had to go to P’cola to pick up the requested info. That took a while by the way. We got home at 5pm.
My nose is a little aggravated and I have only a small amount of pain, enough that I can withstand it with minimal medication, if any.
When I came home I had my allergy test results in hand. Yeah okay, I can’t read it at all!! I asked Mike if he could interrupt what’s on it and all he said was “The nurse said you are HIGHLY allergic to mold. That’s the main one on the paper.”
Umm Mike, “DUHHH!!” “Ya think honey?” The list I have is 2 pages long. Yep, that’s it, only 2. HA!
Tomorrow I have to go back to the Dr. at 1530; that’s…………………………3:30pm. Sorry I forgot what the conversion was on the time. I should have been a Marine! LOL!
My instructions were to use the Nedi Pot 3 times a day and while awake keep my head elevated. Take Motrin for pain and ice my brains away.
That’s really all for tonight. I’ll post more tomorrow evening. Stayed tuned peeps but it’s only going to get better. Actually I’m going to take a look at what kind of nose I want. HEHE!
I had my appointment at 11:00. My Dr. wasn’t able to do much because none of my paperwork was in the medical record, not even the CT scan! How the world is does that happen? Oh wait, we’re in the military, it always happens.
He stuck a 6 inch pipe thing up my nostrils. This makes 3 different sizes up my nose. Anyway, I had some pain but not nearly like I did when I had those 12 inches go up there! He probed a little and quickly discovered that my nose is broken. So now that too is going to need repair! He asked if I could quickly get my hands on the CT scan. Well lucky for me my husband works in the clinic! Of course I can.
I went to base and within minutes there were 2 corpsmen, 1 LT and a commander on top of it. I was out of there within 30 minutes. I had to go to P’cola to pick up the requested info. That took a while by the way. We got home at 5pm.
My nose is a little aggravated and I have only a small amount of pain, enough that I can withstand it with minimal medication, if any.
When I came home I had my allergy test results in hand. Yeah okay, I can’t read it at all!! I asked Mike if he could interrupt what’s on it and all he said was “The nurse said you are HIGHLY allergic to mold. That’s the main one on the paper.”
Umm Mike, “DUHHH!!” “Ya think honey?” The list I have is 2 pages long. Yep, that’s it, only 2. HA!
Tomorrow I have to go back to the Dr. at 1530; that’s…………………………3:30pm. Sorry I forgot what the conversion was on the time. I should have been a Marine! LOL!
My instructions were to use the Nedi Pot 3 times a day and while awake keep my head elevated. Take Motrin for pain and ice my brains away.
That’s really all for tonight. I’ll post more tomorrow evening. Stayed tuned peeps but it’s only going to get better. Actually I’m going to take a look at what kind of nose I want. HEHE!
Monday, May 25, 2009
In Rememberance
Today is Memorial Day. I always look back to this day 2002. This day 9 years ago, I was very fortunate to see my (now) husband. They got back at about 2230 hours from the war in Iraq. He was home and he was home alive!!
The days and night were long and at some times dreadful. His battalion left early February (the 8th to be exact). Every day I set by the TV waiting to get a glimpse of his face. Heck I even bought all the papers in the local area. People in San Clemente would look at us as if we were warriors. Funny thing is that we never saw ourselves as such but only saw our husbands as heroes. We all knew that one day our children would see that in them as well. Throughout the now 14 years in the military no trial has ever been so difficult. We made it! He was home. I remember when they got home. He got home on Memorial Day. What a blessing.
The worse part was during the time they were deployed, I stood watch in front of the TV. It came out that someone in 2/4 was killed. It was the first one while at war, an unjust war. All the wives in housing sat quietly listening if their door was the one they would have to face.
At the time I had more then one person to worry about. Anthony too was out there. He left 1 week after Mike did and was home 2 days before Mike came back. Only difference was that Anthony was with ¾. I knew he was fine. As long as I didn’t get word he was fine. I lived by the saying “no news is good news”.
Anyhow, 2/4 was the unit Mike was with. A day later it came out in the news that LT. Childers was shot to death. As selfish at it seems; it was with great relief that wasn’t us. Yet at the same time my heart went out to his family, which at the time lived up the hill from us. It was the first death in Operation Freedom. I knew then that regardless of the reasons that were given if one day I was in those shoes; I would know that my husband would have passed with honor that no matter what he died for, he died for the rights in which we take for granted today.
Today I sit here and think about all the people who lost their lives in the wars that have taken place in history. All whose souls were lost. All who left a mother, a father, a spouse, and perhaps children.
All together I lost 11 friends in the first 3 months of war.
Austin lost his daddy to a shot gun wound to the head. Austin was only 5 at the time. Austin also played with Michael.
SGT. Reynoso lost his life trying to save the life of a fellow brother, a marine. He left behind a 3 year old son and 8 year old daughter. He was hit in the chest and died instantly. He was my best friend.
I would name all 11 if I could get myself not to cry so I’m going to stop here. I just want to say that who have served and currently serve, you are a hero in my eyes and the eyes of my children. There is no greater hero then YOU. Thank you for endless amount of hours you put in. Thank you for thinking of a nation that at times doesn’t seem to remember all you’ve done and all the sacrifices you endure each day.
To my cousin Mark, God has his angels watching over you. Thank you making a decision that not anyone can make. I love you my little cousin. You are a MARINE!
Isn’t it something that they sacrifice so much for so little? A few days ago “Sarah” posted a link about how the schools in CA will vote to bring a Gay Marriage curriculum. I’m opposed to it. I don’t see why a child should be taught this. I hope that God lays his hands on the state of CA.
Here in Pace, we have a Vice Principal (I think). I honestly can’t remember if he’s the vice or the principal. They were at a meeting sometime last week. He asked that they come together in prayer. Very simple right? After all, praying isn’t going to kill anyone. Guess what happened to him? Never mind, I’ll just tell you. This man of God is now being prosecuted for praying. He has to stand in front of judge and plead himself guilty of a “crime”.
I’m sorry people, but even at some point when do we realize that something is wrong?
The weather in the panhandle of Florida is absolutely gorgeous right now.
Let’s see here. Okay so I’m going back to school. My first goal is to receive an AA in Religious Psychology. Amazing isn’t it?! As soon as I receive that I will go ahead and get my BA in Business in Health. I’m going to shock some people when they read this. I have only shared my thoughts with one other person. She knows who she is.
Here’s my life in a nutshell. My family knows some but not to its fullest extent. Either I have or a family member has allowed me to witness this. I have experienced the following in my life;
Prostitution,
Drugs and Alcohol,
Gangs,
Attempted Murder,
Rape,
Abandonment,
Emotional Abuse,
Homeless,
Lastly, Faith and a broken vicious circle!
I have to say that without any of these I couldn’t be the person I am today. I LOVE my life.
Let this be the last paragraph for the night. Tomorrow I will be going in to see my Dr. My appointment is set for 11am. I’ll update tomorrow.
The days and night were long and at some times dreadful. His battalion left early February (the 8th to be exact). Every day I set by the TV waiting to get a glimpse of his face. Heck I even bought all the papers in the local area. People in San Clemente would look at us as if we were warriors. Funny thing is that we never saw ourselves as such but only saw our husbands as heroes. We all knew that one day our children would see that in them as well. Throughout the now 14 years in the military no trial has ever been so difficult. We made it! He was home. I remember when they got home. He got home on Memorial Day. What a blessing.
The worse part was during the time they were deployed, I stood watch in front of the TV. It came out that someone in 2/4 was killed. It was the first one while at war, an unjust war. All the wives in housing sat quietly listening if their door was the one they would have to face.
At the time I had more then one person to worry about. Anthony too was out there. He left 1 week after Mike did and was home 2 days before Mike came back. Only difference was that Anthony was with ¾. I knew he was fine. As long as I didn’t get word he was fine. I lived by the saying “no news is good news”.
Anyhow, 2/4 was the unit Mike was with. A day later it came out in the news that LT. Childers was shot to death. As selfish at it seems; it was with great relief that wasn’t us. Yet at the same time my heart went out to his family, which at the time lived up the hill from us. It was the first death in Operation Freedom. I knew then that regardless of the reasons that were given if one day I was in those shoes; I would know that my husband would have passed with honor that no matter what he died for, he died for the rights in which we take for granted today.
Today I sit here and think about all the people who lost their lives in the wars that have taken place in history. All whose souls were lost. All who left a mother, a father, a spouse, and perhaps children.
All together I lost 11 friends in the first 3 months of war.
Austin lost his daddy to a shot gun wound to the head. Austin was only 5 at the time. Austin also played with Michael.
SGT. Reynoso lost his life trying to save the life of a fellow brother, a marine. He left behind a 3 year old son and 8 year old daughter. He was hit in the chest and died instantly. He was my best friend.
I would name all 11 if I could get myself not to cry so I’m going to stop here. I just want to say that who have served and currently serve, you are a hero in my eyes and the eyes of my children. There is no greater hero then YOU. Thank you for endless amount of hours you put in. Thank you for thinking of a nation that at times doesn’t seem to remember all you’ve done and all the sacrifices you endure each day.
To my cousin Mark, God has his angels watching over you. Thank you making a decision that not anyone can make. I love you my little cousin. You are a MARINE!
Isn’t it something that they sacrifice so much for so little? A few days ago “Sarah” posted a link about how the schools in CA will vote to bring a Gay Marriage curriculum. I’m opposed to it. I don’t see why a child should be taught this. I hope that God lays his hands on the state of CA.
Here in Pace, we have a Vice Principal (I think). I honestly can’t remember if he’s the vice or the principal. They were at a meeting sometime last week. He asked that they come together in prayer. Very simple right? After all, praying isn’t going to kill anyone. Guess what happened to him? Never mind, I’ll just tell you. This man of God is now being prosecuted for praying. He has to stand in front of judge and plead himself guilty of a “crime”.
I’m sorry people, but even at some point when do we realize that something is wrong?
The weather in the panhandle of Florida is absolutely gorgeous right now.
Let’s see here. Okay so I’m going back to school. My first goal is to receive an AA in Religious Psychology. Amazing isn’t it?! As soon as I receive that I will go ahead and get my BA in Business in Health. I’m going to shock some people when they read this. I have only shared my thoughts with one other person. She knows who she is.
Here’s my life in a nutshell. My family knows some but not to its fullest extent. Either I have or a family member has allowed me to witness this. I have experienced the following in my life;
Prostitution,
Drugs and Alcohol,
Gangs,
Attempted Murder,
Rape,
Abandonment,
Emotional Abuse,
Homeless,
Lastly, Faith and a broken vicious circle!
I have to say that without any of these I couldn’t be the person I am today. I LOVE my life.
Let this be the last paragraph for the night. Tomorrow I will be going in to see my Dr. My appointment is set for 11am. I’ll update tomorrow.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I Beleive!!
I’m trying to put a smile on my face and not complain. I need the power of prayer to overwhelm me.
I am in an unordinary amount of pain right now. Please pray for me.
I am in an unordinary amount of pain right now. Please pray for me.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Put a smile on my face.
I’m going to continue to start by introducing what I have learned within myself. After that is when I’ll go ahead and tell you about the ins and outs of the Aguilar Family.
“I will forget my complaint; I will change the look on my face and smile.”
Job 9:27
With that alone, I think I’ve learned plenty.
Today was an off day. I put myself in the position of not leaving the house. We’ve had a beautiful breezy day. A breezy or windy day means more pollen in the air, so I decided to stay indoors.
Lately I’ve been fighting against the bad (Satan). Tonight I was in church and sure enough I starting getting headaches. Once again I, WE fought him off and we won! Why not watch the devil be defeated? I’m sorry, but yes, my God is that good! Not only is he good but he is GREAT!
Today we got word that we have been put on high alert. Someone allowed anger and perhaps hatred to overcome him. He went into a bank at some point, robbed them, and left behind tad bits of information saying he was going to get back at the military. His plans are to go to bases and make a bloody chaos. They have no idea where he is at and they do have a complete description of this man.
I say let fear not overcome us because God has sent his angels to protect us.
Next deal, I have an appointment on Tuesday at 11am to see my Dr. I’m still scheduled to have my surgery next week but there is a test that he needs me to take. All I know is that I can’t miss church! They’re going to have to find a way so that I can still attend Sunday services.
I’m a bit saddened that I won’t be making it to Texas. I had hoped to see Stephanie graduate. I feel so bad that I won’t be there for her. I will defiantly be thinking of her that day.
You know there is a connection you make with military families. It’s hard to explain. This evening I met someone whose husband passed away some years back. She told me that her husband served in the military. I don’t remember if she told me what branch, I’m almost sure, but at the same time not sure. Does that make sense? I think I lost myself in that statement. HA! God bless her heart she must have been about 70 years of age if not older. Oh where was I going with this? Anyway, when introducing herself, apart of me got excited because she too was apart of the family. It’s an indescribable feeling but it felt so good knowing that someone there knows the obstacles that a military wife faces each and every day.
Now by no means am I saying being a civilian wife is easy. It’s just that with the military spouse we have to find family where ever it is we go. I have family all over the world!!! I am the proud wife to a man that serves for a nation! He serves just so that I can get a nose job! LOL! I had to toss that in.
This is my randomness.
Hey did I mention that all the women I know are Devine women? I love you all! Yes you are Devine! I am Devine!
“I will forget my complaint; I will change the look on my face and smile.”
Job 9:27
With that alone, I think I’ve learned plenty.
Today was an off day. I put myself in the position of not leaving the house. We’ve had a beautiful breezy day. A breezy or windy day means more pollen in the air, so I decided to stay indoors.
Lately I’ve been fighting against the bad (Satan). Tonight I was in church and sure enough I starting getting headaches. Once again I, WE fought him off and we won! Why not watch the devil be defeated? I’m sorry, but yes, my God is that good! Not only is he good but he is GREAT!
Today we got word that we have been put on high alert. Someone allowed anger and perhaps hatred to overcome him. He went into a bank at some point, robbed them, and left behind tad bits of information saying he was going to get back at the military. His plans are to go to bases and make a bloody chaos. They have no idea where he is at and they do have a complete description of this man.
I say let fear not overcome us because God has sent his angels to protect us.
Next deal, I have an appointment on Tuesday at 11am to see my Dr. I’m still scheduled to have my surgery next week but there is a test that he needs me to take. All I know is that I can’t miss church! They’re going to have to find a way so that I can still attend Sunday services.
I’m a bit saddened that I won’t be making it to Texas. I had hoped to see Stephanie graduate. I feel so bad that I won’t be there for her. I will defiantly be thinking of her that day.
You know there is a connection you make with military families. It’s hard to explain. This evening I met someone whose husband passed away some years back. She told me that her husband served in the military. I don’t remember if she told me what branch, I’m almost sure, but at the same time not sure. Does that make sense? I think I lost myself in that statement. HA! God bless her heart she must have been about 70 years of age if not older. Oh where was I going with this? Anyway, when introducing herself, apart of me got excited because she too was apart of the family. It’s an indescribable feeling but it felt so good knowing that someone there knows the obstacles that a military wife faces each and every day.
Now by no means am I saying being a civilian wife is easy. It’s just that with the military spouse we have to find family where ever it is we go. I have family all over the world!!! I am the proud wife to a man that serves for a nation! He serves just so that I can get a nose job! LOL! I had to toss that in.
This is my randomness.
Hey did I mention that all the women I know are Devine women? I love you all! Yes you are Devine! I am Devine!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Coby the Shih Tzu
A friend of mine wants to steal our puppy. Can you blame her?!
This is true:
I have had a great evening at my "girls night out". It all happened on facebook. PSH and I was going to delete that account.
All that came;
Becca, Masako, Victoria, Averi, and Sarita.
Weight:
I think I lost weight from laughing so hard!
Love you all!
All in the name of love
The kids and I are home keeping the phone within arms distance today. We should be finding out when I have surgery.
I’ve recently made mention of the fact that I had to Act in love. WOW!! What a difference it has made. My kids are enjoying the time we’ve spent together. Let’s not mention the gorgeous weather we’ve had. What a time to be able to love one another again.
What perfect timing for Mike and me. I find it odd how sometimes technology gets in the way of our relationships. We tend to forget what we have rather then what’s in front of us.
I’ve recently made mention of the fact that I had to Act in love. WOW!! What a difference it has made. My kids are enjoying the time we’ve spent together. Let’s not mention the gorgeous weather we’ve had. What a time to be able to love one another again.
What perfect timing for Mike and me. I find it odd how sometimes technology gets in the way of our relationships. We tend to forget what we have rather then what’s in front of us.
I reread that and what an interesting concept that is. I never thought I would have said this before. I wonder how much time some of us spend on the computer, texting, TV, video games, etc. vs. our families…
What a life changing experience for me in the 13 days!
What a life changing experience for me in the 13 days!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Aww the memories of crying tots.
Here we go. I have literally come to the realization that there is no such thing as terrible 2’s. I know I’ve made mention of this several times but its terrible 3’s! Who in the world made up terrible 2’s?
I recall some 11 years ago having to go through this for the first time. Man I had a screamer on my hands. Matter of fact, I had a friend there to experience it with me. We use to sit there holding the door for what seemed like a life time. I remember having to go downstairs and go outside so that they wouldn’t call the MP’s (military police) on me.
Crystal use to go to the window of her brother’s room and scream bloody murder out his window. Her exact words, “they’re hurting me!!” “Help!!!!”, now I laugh about it.
Hum, I wonder if that is why Megan doesn’t want to having any kids, something to think about eh? With all the troubles they ask of us I couldn’t have asked for a better gift from God. I am a mommy!!!!!! I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
I have a list of names that I’d like to put down on someone’s prayer chain.
A.P= Cancer
M.A= open his heart to faith
B.C= Guidance and strength
V.H= Safe trip to Florida June 4th
All our troops and their families
And my family who’s in the valley
This is my story and I’m sticking to it!
I recall some 11 years ago having to go through this for the first time. Man I had a screamer on my hands. Matter of fact, I had a friend there to experience it with me. We use to sit there holding the door for what seemed like a life time. I remember having to go downstairs and go outside so that they wouldn’t call the MP’s (military police) on me.
Crystal use to go to the window of her brother’s room and scream bloody murder out his window. Her exact words, “they’re hurting me!!” “Help!!!!”, now I laugh about it.
Hum, I wonder if that is why Megan doesn’t want to having any kids, something to think about eh? With all the troubles they ask of us I couldn’t have asked for a better gift from God. I am a mommy!!!!!! I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
I have a list of names that I’d like to put down on someone’s prayer chain.
A.P= Cancer
M.A= open his heart to faith
B.C= Guidance and strength
V.H= Safe trip to Florida June 4th
All our troops and their families
And my family who’s in the valley
This is my story and I’m sticking to it!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
A whole lot of ACTING!
At this point I’m not exactly sure were to start. There so much to tell. Friday we read about loving your neighbors and reaching out to them. I’m not exactly sure how others view me, but I’ve always thought that I have been pretty good at helping others in their time of need. I’ve always had a love to help others despite the consequences and how it would affect me and/or my pocket book. That night I realized that I haven’t done enough for others. I mean come on now! I’m supposed to love my neighbors. Yet I’m here at home and haven’t really met anyone other then at the clinic and at church. Is that enough? Is that all that God is asking me to do? Who are my neighbors? The people living next to us?
Well I had to answer those questions. Then I realized that my neighbors are everyone. Everyone is those at the stores, schools, libraries, anywhere that I go. Have I really reached out to them? The answer was no.
Sometimes we allow other people to stop us. I had a conversation with someone about this. Their reaction differed from mine.
At the very end I realized that I need to ACT IN LOVE just as Jesus did.
A different subject;
Yesterday we went somewhere. LOL! I have no idea where we went. No really, I can’t recall where we went. I do know that when we got back I was feeling terrible as I did Friday night. Friday night I broke out in hives and unfortunately I did last night also. I don’t know what’s in the air or what I’m even touching for that matter. Last night got so bad on me that I thought I was going to stop breathing. I had hives around my neck, face, and head. Yep on a Saturday night! I’m sorry I have church on Sunday (today).
I woke up this am and was feeling just as bad as I did before closing my eyes last night. I came to the sofa, elevated my head, covered myself with a robe, and went back to sleep. I woke up at 9:20ish. Everyone asked if we were going to church and I answered yes. Trust me I didn’t want to get up to save my life, but I knew that I had to be at church today. Whatever the reason, I was soon to know. I got the baby and I dressed in 30 minutes. I sat in church with so much pain. I knew then (after 45minutes) that I had to rebuke the enemy and by the grace of God I’d be pain free (even if it was temporary). Guess what?! My Jesus won and I made it through the rest of the service feeling a bit better.
The reason why I had to be there was because I had to learn about love. Go figure, isn’t that was I was studying for the past 2-3 days! I have to ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. We must ACT in love as Jesus did.
Oh did I repeat myself? Oh I’m sorry. I guess that means you did too!
Anyway, I’m going to get off here and miss a day of not getting on the laptop and practice this.
I now realize that the only way I can truly love my family is that I ACT in love, but first I must LOVE my father.
Feel the need to ponder?
One more thing, I’m working on patience! Yes, I’m being patient. I’m praying for my mother and my sister and one day we may even say hello again.
Well I had to answer those questions. Then I realized that my neighbors are everyone. Everyone is those at the stores, schools, libraries, anywhere that I go. Have I really reached out to them? The answer was no.
Sometimes we allow other people to stop us. I had a conversation with someone about this. Their reaction differed from mine.
At the very end I realized that I need to ACT IN LOVE just as Jesus did.
A different subject;
Yesterday we went somewhere. LOL! I have no idea where we went. No really, I can’t recall where we went. I do know that when we got back I was feeling terrible as I did Friday night. Friday night I broke out in hives and unfortunately I did last night also. I don’t know what’s in the air or what I’m even touching for that matter. Last night got so bad on me that I thought I was going to stop breathing. I had hives around my neck, face, and head. Yep on a Saturday night! I’m sorry I have church on Sunday (today).
I woke up this am and was feeling just as bad as I did before closing my eyes last night. I came to the sofa, elevated my head, covered myself with a robe, and went back to sleep. I woke up at 9:20ish. Everyone asked if we were going to church and I answered yes. Trust me I didn’t want to get up to save my life, but I knew that I had to be at church today. Whatever the reason, I was soon to know. I got the baby and I dressed in 30 minutes. I sat in church with so much pain. I knew then (after 45minutes) that I had to rebuke the enemy and by the grace of God I’d be pain free (even if it was temporary). Guess what?! My Jesus won and I made it through the rest of the service feeling a bit better.
The reason why I had to be there was because I had to learn about love. Go figure, isn’t that was I was studying for the past 2-3 days! I have to ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. We must ACT in love as Jesus did.
Oh did I repeat myself? Oh I’m sorry. I guess that means you did too!
Anyway, I’m going to get off here and miss a day of not getting on the laptop and practice this.
I now realize that the only way I can truly love my family is that I ACT in love, but first I must LOVE my father.
Feel the need to ponder?
One more thing, I’m working on patience! Yes, I’m being patient. I’m praying for my mother and my sister and one day we may even say hello again.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Pain is pressure not leaving the body!
I love the military life. I’ll try not to mention that to often. My phone call came in for the next appointment. I have been approved to see a civilian Dr. My appointment is set for next Tuesday. A week from that date is when I’ll be having my surgery.
My plans were that at the end of the month I would fly to Texas and visit some friends that have become more like family. Well it looks that won’t be taking place any longer.
I didn’t make mention to too many only because I recently found this out. Okay maybe not recently like today or yesterday but within the week. I just can’t remember what day.
On my paper work it shows that I now have pieces of bone that have “chipped” off and are now floating around in the fungus. I’d assume that would bring up some concern as they could easily make their way into my brain.
I’d have to say this is the best news ever!!! Growing up I was always quite conscience of my nose. I hated and still do, taking pictures sideways. I look straight ahead and I’m still able to see it pointing out at everyone! Oh and let’s not mention the undulation that exists on it, holy moly! For those that have come across it you know I’m not kidding.
I’ve always had good humor when it comes down to it and actually I’ve had to compete with family and some of Mike’s friends on who has the largest nose. Not always have I won but boy it was close! Unfortunate for them I’ll be getting it fixed (for free) all thanks to the military. That’s right my husband served only to fix my nose! Lol! Not really, but it sounds cool.
Funny isn’t it. I should love myself the way that God made me and I do. It’s just that hey, when such a request as this one gets answered why not feel blessed!
Continue to keep me in your prayers, as I continue to have some “pressure” around the entire head.
Let’s define pressure: Pain. In a way that you picture yourself kicking the Dr. where it hurts. HA!
My plans were that at the end of the month I would fly to Texas and visit some friends that have become more like family. Well it looks that won’t be taking place any longer.
I didn’t make mention to too many only because I recently found this out. Okay maybe not recently like today or yesterday but within the week. I just can’t remember what day.
On my paper work it shows that I now have pieces of bone that have “chipped” off and are now floating around in the fungus. I’d assume that would bring up some concern as they could easily make their way into my brain.
I’d have to say this is the best news ever!!! Growing up I was always quite conscience of my nose. I hated and still do, taking pictures sideways. I look straight ahead and I’m still able to see it pointing out at everyone! Oh and let’s not mention the undulation that exists on it, holy moly! For those that have come across it you know I’m not kidding.
I’ve always had good humor when it comes down to it and actually I’ve had to compete with family and some of Mike’s friends on who has the largest nose. Not always have I won but boy it was close! Unfortunate for them I’ll be getting it fixed (for free) all thanks to the military. That’s right my husband served only to fix my nose! Lol! Not really, but it sounds cool.
Funny isn’t it. I should love myself the way that God made me and I do. It’s just that hey, when such a request as this one gets answered why not feel blessed!
Continue to keep me in your prayers, as I continue to have some “pressure” around the entire head.
Let’s define pressure: Pain. In a way that you picture yourself kicking the Dr. where it hurts. HA!
I AM Devine!!
Yesterday everything was so unexpected. The only thing that didn’t happen was a phone call for my surgery. Did I mention I’m getting a free nose job?!!
I wanted to come here and tell you all this. I don’t want anyone to run from this but I think the message is important.
I love Jesus with all my heart! He is my father, my teacher, my deliverer, and my boss. You will find a lot of my writings based on my faith. I have learned through out my life that it is through him that I was able to become the woman I am today.
Just yesterday I learned that I had to love myself the way I am. God made us all different and in many shapes and forms. I know you’re saying, “as if we didn’t know that already.” You’re right you do, but the question is how often do you believe that??
Last evening they also mentioned how WE as women don’t do things to please ourselves, but do it to please other women. We want people to notice our new haircut, new shoes, and new “bling”. Now you’re a little more in agreements with me.
Do we often love ourselves first? How can we love others if we do not love who we are, the way we are?
Those are the answers I’ve searched for and will now work on because I am the DEVINE woman. I am a FINE woman and I am a child of God!
I wanted to come here and tell you all this. I don’t want anyone to run from this but I think the message is important.
I love Jesus with all my heart! He is my father, my teacher, my deliverer, and my boss. You will find a lot of my writings based on my faith. I have learned through out my life that it is through him that I was able to become the woman I am today.
Just yesterday I learned that I had to love myself the way I am. God made us all different and in many shapes and forms. I know you’re saying, “as if we didn’t know that already.” You’re right you do, but the question is how often do you believe that??
Last evening they also mentioned how WE as women don’t do things to please ourselves, but do it to please other women. We want people to notice our new haircut, new shoes, and new “bling”. Now you’re a little more in agreements with me.
Do we often love ourselves first? How can we love others if we do not love who we are, the way we are?
Those are the answers I’ve searched for and will now work on because I am the DEVINE woman. I am a FINE woman and I am a child of God!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
In The Beginning of Our Online Book
I’ve been sending emails out for quite some time now. Though I was never really constant at sending them, they did go out.
Lately they’ve gone out more then the normal. I had a friend, or 2, or 3, comment on my writing skills. Funny thing is I see it differently. Enough so that I figured I could amuse you all by starting a blog about the life of us. I know I’ll become deeper involved in this but right now I’m skeptical and thinking, “wow, just another thing I have to check when coming to the laptop”. I’m sure in no time I’ll be use to posting. Matter of fact I think this may help some with my “typo” skills. Lol!
So here’s to the beginnings of many stories to come!
Lately they’ve gone out more then the normal. I had a friend, or 2, or 3, comment on my writing skills. Funny thing is I see it differently. Enough so that I figured I could amuse you all by starting a blog about the life of us. I know I’ll become deeper involved in this but right now I’m skeptical and thinking, “wow, just another thing I have to check when coming to the laptop”. I’m sure in no time I’ll be use to posting. Matter of fact I think this may help some with my “typo” skills. Lol!
So here’s to the beginnings of many stories to come!
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