At this point I’m not exactly sure were to start. There so much to tell. Friday we read about loving your neighbors and reaching out to them. I’m not exactly sure how others view me, but I’ve always thought that I have been pretty good at helping others in their time of need. I’ve always had a love to help others despite the consequences and how it would affect me and/or my pocket book. That night I realized that I haven’t done enough for others. I mean come on now! I’m supposed to love my neighbors. Yet I’m here at home and haven’t really met anyone other then at the clinic and at church. Is that enough? Is that all that God is asking me to do? Who are my neighbors? The people living next to us?
Well I had to answer those questions. Then I realized that my neighbors are everyone. Everyone is those at the stores, schools, libraries, anywhere that I go. Have I really reached out to them? The answer was no.
Sometimes we allow other people to stop us. I had a conversation with someone about this. Their reaction differed from mine.
At the very end I realized that I need to ACT IN LOVE just as Jesus did.
A different subject;
Yesterday we went somewhere. LOL! I have no idea where we went. No really, I can’t recall where we went. I do know that when we got back I was feeling terrible as I did Friday night. Friday night I broke out in hives and unfortunately I did last night also. I don’t know what’s in the air or what I’m even touching for that matter. Last night got so bad on me that I thought I was going to stop breathing. I had hives around my neck, face, and head. Yep on a Saturday night! I’m sorry I have church on Sunday (today).
I woke up this am and was feeling just as bad as I did before closing my eyes last night. I came to the sofa, elevated my head, covered myself with a robe, and went back to sleep. I woke up at 9:20ish. Everyone asked if we were going to church and I answered yes. Trust me I didn’t want to get up to save my life, but I knew that I had to be at church today. Whatever the reason, I was soon to know. I got the baby and I dressed in 30 minutes. I sat in church with so much pain. I knew then (after 45minutes) that I had to rebuke the enemy and by the grace of God I’d be pain free (even if it was temporary). Guess what?! My Jesus won and I made it through the rest of the service feeling a bit better.
The reason why I had to be there was because I had to learn about love. Go figure, isn’t that was I was studying for the past 2-3 days! I have to ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. In order to FEEL love we must ACT in love. We must ACT in love as Jesus did.
Oh did I repeat myself? Oh I’m sorry. I guess that means you did too!
Anyway, I’m going to get off here and miss a day of not getting on the laptop and practice this.
I now realize that the only way I can truly love my family is that I ACT in love, but first I must LOVE my father.
Feel the need to ponder?
One more thing, I’m working on patience! Yes, I’m being patient. I’m praying for my mother and my sister and one day we may even say hello again.
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