That little step back.

"Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth" (Psalm 46:10).

My child, allow me to make your path. I am here waiting for you. Believe in me and I will guide your path. You are my lamb and I know your call. Put faith in me child for I am the Lord......

What else am I to do...

Okay okay I’ll admit it already!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There’s a story I’d like to share. In 29 Palms CA I had a cat named Shadow. We got her from my sister when she was a baby. One day we noticed she was pregnant. Well after being a good future mom she gave birth to 5 beautiful kittens. Shadow was petite even during her pregnancy.

She was such a loving momma that she often chose not to eat in order to keep her babies bellies full. It was to point that I had to pay for an ER surgery. The Vet told me that I needed to be sure she ate or the next time she could die. My ex-husband was deployed at the time. So I had to endure the pain of watching her starve herself at the time Crys and Mikey would keep the babies occupied. Lol. They were just babies themselves. Anyway, Shadow started to eat better. Within a week she back to her old ways. This time there was no saving this momma. We had no choice but to take her in so that they can put her to sleep. She sacrificed her health for the health of her “children”; that was the worse, yet most loving thing a mom could ever do for her children.

Now back to us. We’re broke. I can’t hardly drive anywhere because all we have 9 dollars. There is only 37 miles left on the truck that I need to conserve till Tuesday. I have clothes to wash but can’t. In case I need to buy more bread or milk. I’ve been broke before, but now I have kids. I feel horrible that I can’t supply for my children. I don’t like it, actually I hate it! I HATE IT!!!

I have had to resort to what Shadow had to do for her babies. I have forced myself to not be hungry so that I can ration the food. My kids are by no means going hungry because I will not allow that. I’m not sleeping well. I’m constantly an emotional wreck. I have put my best foot forward and have been working so hard to get enrollments so that I can have a check on Tuesday. I have even felt like pleading at times but have controlled that feeling. I’ve even wanted to say, “I don’t care if you cancel at 3 months, just please, please, help me. I don’t know what to do anymore”. Yes that is what I am very close to doing. I’ve even gone to old customers and have asked for referrals. So I’m pleading here. Someone please help. Please help me. Please help our family. We need the money…

The site you can look at is www.melaleuca.com

I promise it will benefit you too. If you can help please email me at eliaguilarwith3@yahoo.com

This is sad for me because we’re a military family and we’re not finding ends meet. I keep saying to myself just 3 more weeks Lisa, just 3 more weeks. We’ll be okay. Last week was 4 now it’s 3. The time is getting shorter and I know this. It’s just that 3 weeks seems more like 3 years right now.

I am so sorry…

Hey you up there...

I’m glad I have a friend like you. You have sat there and listened to me when no one else has. You have done for me what no one else could ever do. You have given me more than anyone else could ever give me. To you my best friend, I am thankful.

I like it slow. The kids are at “Desire 09”, Sierra is sitting next to me turning the pages to a book. Mike is at the clinic studying for his E-6 exam. Which by the way; is my prayer request. He must pass it in order to pick up rank (promoted). I hear my dogs snoring. The birds are chirping outside. The traffic going by on the main road and my fingers typing to my heart’s content.

I’ve had a few good things said to me today. Maybe I’m a little humble. I’m not sure. Recently I have let my heart speak for me. It’s been working like this; my heart speaks to my brain, my brain to my tongue and my tongue delivers the message.

A dear friend in whom I call step-sis laughed at me (maybe with me) her reason was my message on the voicemail. I’ve had a few comments on it. I guess it’s worth listening to. Perhaps I’ll make someone’s day. Perhaps I’ll make my day.

I know I’m rambling, but I kind of like it. This am wasn’t the best for me. It was actually pretty bad. There was something I had to do. I had to rebuke Satan. I won’t go into full details but this morning I was in the truck and I had to say out loud, “Satan you better back off because with Jesus I will NOT be defeated!!!” If I’m correct those were the only words I said. Oh and I said that for at least 10 minutes until I was able to leave all the problems behind. Now ask yourself this, do you think it worked?

"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold all things are become new" (2 Corinthians 5:17).

Pardon me as some very great people stopped by. I have now forgotten where I was going with everything. I’ll come back another day….

Pictures

uhh oh.

You would not believe all the good news on this side of town. I would tell you but don’t have much time. I also need to figure out how to put a slide show on here. If you know how can you leave me a comment on how to do it? I will, by the am, get to this an update you all on what has been taken place in our lives the past week. I’m sure it bound to blow your minds!!!

In Orlando

Joshua 25:??

“But as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”

Last night was the most sleep I've gotten in 2 weeks!!! I fell asleep at 10pm and woke up at 4:30ish. I have an exciting day ahead of me and I can't wait. I have a room to myself. I ate lots of fiber this am to keep my energy high. I'm taking some water and fruits with my for lunch and will eat a salad for dinner tonight. I love my life, more so when my family is with me! I miss them so much already..

Burnt out..

So now's the time where I say, yes, you can help me now.. I'm tired and working on about 5 hours of sleep each night.. Not to mention that I should be packing for tomorrow. I leave to Orlando!!

BUGGED OUT!!!!!!

I wanna scream and pull my hair out!!! I gotta pull everything out of the house and clean it. I thought I cleaned the rooms but when moved the furniture out, garbage appeared....

Why am I so frustrated!?!

Yes, This is a true story.

My lead flight attendant came to me and said, 'We have an H.R. on this
flight.' H.R. stands for human remains. 'Are they military?' I asked.
'Yes', she said. 'Is there an escort?' I asked. 'Yes, I already assigned
him a seat.' 'Would you please tell him to come to the flight deck. You
can board him early', I said.

A short while later, a young Army sergeant entered the flight deck. He
was the image of the perfectly dressed soldier. He introduced himself
and I asked him about his soldier. The escorts of these fallen soldiers
talk about them as if they are still alive and still with us. My soldier
is on his way back to Virginia', he said. He proceeded to answer my
questions, but offered no words on his own. I asked him if there was
anything I could do for him and he said no. I told him that he had the
toughest job in the military and that I appreciated the work that he
does for the families of our fallen soldiers. The first officer and I
got up out of our seats to shake his hand. He left the flight deck to
find his seat.

We completed our preflight checks, pushed back and performed an
uneventful departure. About 30 minutes into our flight I received a call
from the lead flight attendant in the cabin. 'I just found out the
family of the soldier we are carrying, is on board', he said. He then
proceeded to tell me that the father, mother, wife and 2-year old
daughter were escorting their son, husband, and father home. The family
was upset because they were unable to see the container that the soldier
was in before we left. We were on our way to a major hub at which the
family was going to wait four hours for the connecting flight home to
Virginia. The father of the soldier told the flight attendant that
knowing his son was below him in the cargo compartment and being unable
to see him was too much for him and the family to bear. He had asked the
flight attendant if there was anything that could be done to allow them
to see him upon our arrival. The family wanted to be outside by the
cargo door to watch the soldier being taken off the airplane. I could
hear the desperation in the flight attendant's voice when he asked me if
there was anything I could do. 'I'm on it', I said. I told him that I
would get back to him.

Airborne communication with my company normally occurs in the form of
e-mail like messages. I decided to bypass this system and contact my
flight dispatcher directly on a secondary radio. There is a radio
operator in the operations control center who connects you to the
telephone of the dispatcher. I was in direct contact with the
dispatcher. I explained the situation I had onboard with the family and
what it was the family wanted. He said he understood and that he would
get back to me.

Two hours went by and I had not heard from the dispatcher. We were going
to get busy soon and I needed to know what to tell the family. I sent a
text message asking for an update. I saved the return message from the
dispatcher and this following is the text:

'Captain, sorry it has taken so long to get back to you. There is policy
on this now and I had to check on a few things. Upon your arrival a
dedicated escort team will meet the aircraft. The team will escort the
family to the ramp and plane side. A van will be used to load the
remains with a secondary van for the family. The family will be taken to
their departure area and escorted into the terminal where the remains
can be seen on the ramp. It is a private area for the family only. When
the connecting aircraft arrives, the family will be escorted onto the
ramp and planeside to watch the remains being loaded for the final leg
home. Captain, most of us here in flight control are veterans.
Please pass our condolences on to the family. Thanks.'

I sent a message back telling flight control thanks for a good job. I
printed out the message and gave it to the lead flight attendant to pass
on to the father. The lead flight attendant was very thankful and told
me, 'You have no idea how much this will mean to them.' Things started
getting busy for the descent, approach and landing. After landing, we
cleared the runway and taxied to the ramp area. The ramp is huge with 15
gates on either side of the alleyway. It is always a busy area with
aircraft maneuvering every which way to enter and exit. When we entered
the ramp and checked in with the ramp controller, we were told that all
traffic was being held for us.

'There is a team in place to meet the aircraft', we were told. It looked
like it was all coming together, then I realized that once we turned the
seat belt sign off, everyone would stand up at once and delay the family
from getting off the airplane. As we approached our gate, I asked the
copilot to tell the ramp controller we were going to stop short of the
gate to make an announcement to the passengers. He did that and the ramp
controller said, 'Take your time.'

I stopped the aircraft and set the parking brake. I pushed the public
address button and said, 'Ladies and gentleman, this is your captain
speaking. I have stopped short of our gate to make a special
announcement. We have a passenger on board who deserves our honor and
respect. His name is private XXXXX, a soldier who recently lost his
life. Private XXXXX is under your feet in the cargo hold. Escorting him
today is Army Sergeant XXXXX. Also, on board are his father, mother,
wife, and daughter. Your entire flight crew is asking for all passengers
to remain in their seats to allow the family to exit the aircraft first.
Thank you.'

We continued the turn to the gate, came to a stop and started our
shutdown procedures. A couple of minutes later I opened the cockpit
door. I found the two forward flight attendants crying, something you
just do not see. I was told that after we came to a stop, every
passenger on the aircraft stayed in their seats, waiting for the family
to exit the aircraft. When the family got up and gathered their things,
a passenger slowly started to clap his hands. Moments later more
passengers joined in and soon the entire aircraft was clapping. Words of
'God Bless You', I'm sorry, thank you, be proud, and other kind words
were uttered to the family as they made their way down the aisle and out
of the airplane. They were escorted down to the ramp to finally be with
their loved one. Many of the passengers disembarking thanked me for the
announcement I had made. They were just words, I told them, I could say
them over and over again, but nothing I say will bring back that brave
soldier.

I respectfully ask that all of you reflect on this event and the
sacrifices that millions of our men and women have made to ensure our
freedom and safety in these United States of America.

Faithly Pray

Subject: Special Event for Frank Lay/Robert Freeman Defense Fund

Hi Y'all - Things are hopping! The defense fund has grown to over $5000 in 4 days! The immediate need is $8,000 that must be paid today but that is just the beginning.

We have created a website www.layfreemandefense.com you can keep up with all the news there. We will have the consent decree and other court documents that you can look at so you can be totally informed.

We still have t-shirts for sale so let people know.

Please keep reading this email for information on a fund raising event for the defense fund.

If you want to be added to the layfreemandefense email list, let me know.

Our Church Youth Group

Only our bear backs.

I just got word about what is going on here. All right so by the end of the day the whole house will be packed with the exception of the kitchen. On Saturday we will have everything out. On Monday we will have housing come in and do the pre-inspection. We will remain in home with minimal possessions. On the 16th we will move all the kitchen belongings out. The 17th we will have our last inspection and move into our 5th wheel!

Seriously I don’t ever plan to pawn everything on Mike, but on the 12th I will be leaving to Orlando!! I have a HUGE convention to attend for Melaleuca. I won’t be returning till Sunday, possibly Saturday depending on wither or not I bought a banquet ticket.

The anticipation has kicked in and I’m ready to do this! You’re defiantly going to want to see what happens in our lives!

and down will come baby cradle and all

As the day begins to come to an end, I am beginning to see the light. Boy has it been and exhausting day today. I look forward to Saturday when all this is finally ended. As I was finishing the rooms I also cleaned them out. That means there is no dust, no stains on the carpets, and the walls are cleaned (mostly). Sierra’s room needs touch up paint were she decided to become Van Gogh. The holes in all the rooms need to be spackled. The next job is the living room and kitchen.

The living room is being used as a bedroom/storage, basically untouchable. The kitchen well I’ll begin to work on that come Friday as I start to make all the food for the people that are coming to help. Mike came home and said we have gotten all the help we need! Once our furniture is out it’s cleaning the living room, kitchen, garage, storage, and laundry room. I would think all is effortless because I just got through cleaning the stove 2 weeks ago. The most complex part is going to be cleaning the carpet and the frig.

Oh can I remind everybody that we have yet had our pre-inspection. Pre-inspection- Housing management comes and lets you know what needs to be clean, fixed, washed, switched over, and such. I’d like to consider myself a professional; after all I have 14 years of practice behind me.

I’ve decided come Monday we’ll call them over to do our pre-inspection. While they are here I’m hoping to get the final inspection done at the same time. That means we may be able to turn the keys in that day. WOW! What a week! Did I mention I completed all my school work! WHEW!!!!

Boy has the military taught me well!!! I’m so proud to be a part of the US NAVY. Do me one goodwill; pray for me, because when all is said and done I’m sure to sleep a couple of days away.

Urgent!!! PLEASE READ!!

URGENT, DO NOT GO TO "CARS.GOV" WEBSITE!!!!

Very interesting!!!
I'm not saying you can't use it, but,....
In case you did not watch the Glenn Beck Show on Friday, July 31st, take a look at this video
If you use this site, a privacy statement will pop up. If you click "I agree" another statement will come up telling you that your computer and its contents will become the property of the Government and its affiliates foreign and domestic!!! Very interesting Buyer beware! Do not try this yourself - watch the video before you decide to use this website for anything.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNhMP9NjH2o

And.... if you use "skype", G-mail, and certain others they have the ability to listen in on phone calls!!! Google is doing this (along with monitoring your computer) and they are saying it enables them to direct the right advertising to the right people. Listen to the warning on the video.

Still going strong!!

This is the day that the Lord has made. I rejoice and be glad in him

!! Praise God!!

I loved and still that song. Este es el dia en que Christo eso! AMEN!!!

So the update;

Yesterday I finished all my school work for the week. We took down 2 rooms and one restroom. My china is emptied. What a blessed day this will be. God is good! I have everything that will be going in the RV set aside. I feel like I've accomplished so much in such little time. Perhaps if we're fortunate we'll be out of here on Monday. Now pictures, well I don't have any, BUT I will soon. Stay tuned!!!

As of now...

We are hoping to have everything out of the house by Saturday. It if turns out the way we'd like it to, we'll have the house cleaned out and ready to turn the key in by Monday. Tonight is the mission to remove everything out of Mikey's room! That's 2 rooms 1 restroom down!!! Oh did I mention I even got the time to turn in 3 of my assignments today? I am better then Superwoman! A huge Bravo Zulu to the Military, couldn't have done it without you (14 years and still going strong!)!!

Dear Lord,

Please help my husband. He's been on the right track and now he may be reverting to his old ways. Help him to understand what he needs in his life. It will only better him as husband, father, and man. He needs this change in his life, a new direction. I know that you will work with him if I call upon your name. I trust in you Lord. In Jesus name I pray, Amen...