Today was a rough day. One of the kids in our church lost her sister. Her sister passed away in a car accident. It has been rough. It feels like Britt is my daughter and I feel every bit of pain that she is feeling. I don’t know how to comfort her, much less even what to say. I know that “I’m sorry” isn’t good enough and honestly; it’s not something I wanted to hear when my dad passed away.
I’ve once again been proven that our church family is beyond anything I could have ever expected. Their love is shining through. They have been in and out of my house all day to show her that we are there for her.
Through all of the support for this young lady, I still feel helpless on what to say or do. Despite it all, we have been able to turn the mood into laughter and sometimes tears, when the good and bad times have come through out the day.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Smiling at the wonders the Lord has given me.
Right now I'm listening to the sounds of laughter and Karaoke mixed in together. My son is so happy right now. I can't help but to sit here with a smile on my face. Wow! The Lord has truly blessed Mike and I with a beautiful family. His grin is from ear to ear. He doesn't care that he's not on tune, or that his throat hurts. Matter of fact he has no care in the world right now.
They have even decided to dedicate a song to me. La Bamba!! Imagine that?! One white chick and my son singing a Spanish song to me...HAHAHA!! I can't help but to laugh at these kids.
Cici is sleeping. She's in bed and looks so angelic. Sis is listening to Christian music and taking it easy in her room.
I can't help but to sit here and laugh at these kids singing in Spanish! LOL!!!
As I listen to them and I blog, I'm also chatting with the greatest friend and sister! I ran into some pictures a few days ago of her and I singing in the church we grew up in. For a second I missed my childhood and for some time I missed her. How I wish I could see them again. I want to go out to eat with her and D and watch people act silly around us. That was a blast! The best part was that Mike was happy being there!!
Boy, do I miss my husband. I wish I could sit here with him and laugh at these kids, I miss you my love. What a great night it's been.
Bec and D I miss you guys!!! I can't wait till we see each other again! We'll need to take lots of pictures this next time. We're women now!! I love you all!!
They have even decided to dedicate a song to me. La Bamba!! Imagine that?! One white chick and my son singing a Spanish song to me...HAHAHA!! I can't help but to laugh at these kids.
Cici is sleeping. She's in bed and looks so angelic. Sis is listening to Christian music and taking it easy in her room.
I can't help but to sit here and laugh at these kids singing in Spanish! LOL!!!
As I listen to them and I blog, I'm also chatting with the greatest friend and sister! I ran into some pictures a few days ago of her and I singing in the church we grew up in. For a second I missed my childhood and for some time I missed her. How I wish I could see them again. I want to go out to eat with her and D and watch people act silly around us. That was a blast! The best part was that Mike was happy being there!!
Boy, do I miss my husband. I wish I could sit here with him and laugh at these kids, I miss you my love. What a great night it's been.
Bec and D I miss you guys!!! I can't wait till we see each other again! We'll need to take lots of pictures this next time. We're women now!! I love you all!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Shout to the LORD!!
What a wonderful day it has been! Thank you Lord for surrounding me with your beauty!! What a might God we serve!
I'm so happy I don't even know what to talk to about. So I left you a show!
I'm so happy I don't even know what to talk to about. So I left you a show!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Youth day!
Mike our daughter is here!!!! 90 mile bike ride Baby!!! All to support the missions!!! We love you!!!!
It's Sunday!!!!
How do I sum this up?
1. awesome friends
2. Great service
3. Great weekend!
4. Feeling fab!
5. God is AMAZING!!!!!!
1. awesome friends
2. Great service
3. Great weekend!
4. Feeling fab!
5. God is AMAZING!!!!!!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Their testimony
Our God is an amazing God!! I ran into a couple at base housing today. Praise God the husband has been healed by the blood of Jesus!!!!!! He no longer lives with Type 1 Diabetes. He was so happy. His smile grinned from ear to ear. The wife watched in love as her husband spoke of his testimony. I wanted to scream and shout. I held tight and finally said, “The Lord is moving; so many people are being healed; we’re pleading the blood of Jesus on everyone who suffers..!” I continue to remember their faces as they said they have been so faithful to the Lord for all he’s doing their lives.
How can we not want to love him when he shows his love in ways like these? I don’t understand why we even question him.
"For I will restore health unto you, and I will heal you of your wounds, saith the Lord." (Jeremiah 30:17).
I mean he said it himself. He said that he would heal us of all our pain. He died, he was crucified, and he rose and went to heaven. Amazing isn’t it?! We see it here on earth!! “He is the same today, tomorrow and forever”!! (Hebrews 13:8).
Did I mention how beautiful my children are? These 2 days they have worked together without fighting! This house is a home anointed, and filled with the Holy Spirit! I feel at ease.
Mike leaves tomorrow to the “field”. I know he’ll be fine, after all we’re praying a hedge of protection over him. Boy, how we’ve missed him. I’m sure he misses us too. Mike if you’re reading this; I’m glad that you know you left us in good hands. Our church family has been amazing and a true blessing to our family and home. I love you baby!!!
How can we not want to love him when he shows his love in ways like these? I don’t understand why we even question him.
"For I will restore health unto you, and I will heal you of your wounds, saith the Lord." (Jeremiah 30:17).
I mean he said it himself. He said that he would heal us of all our pain. He died, he was crucified, and he rose and went to heaven. Amazing isn’t it?! We see it here on earth!! “He is the same today, tomorrow and forever”!! (Hebrews 13:8).
Did I mention how beautiful my children are? These 2 days they have worked together without fighting! This house is a home anointed, and filled with the Holy Spirit! I feel at ease.
Mike leaves tomorrow to the “field”. I know he’ll be fine, after all we’re praying a hedge of protection over him. Boy, how we’ve missed him. I’m sure he misses us too. Mike if you’re reading this; I’m glad that you know you left us in good hands. Our church family has been amazing and a true blessing to our family and home. I love you baby!!!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Today's rambles
I’m not sure how well yesterday went. I woke up feeling as if I was floating on air. To some, that would be a great thing, but to me; it’s like telling me I didn’t sleep well. I woke up in deep thought; again about my husband. Now that I think about I haven’t read my bible like I should be. I mean I read it, but I haven’t been grasping the word of God.
As I sit here I’m wondering how interesting yesterday was. It’s almost like I don’t have any memory of what took place, sort of. I heard from my husband by email only. Did I mention that already? Shared a couple of emails and the conversation was over.
I went and mailed off package to him. Can you believe it cost me $45 to send him a box?! I left the PO with tears in my eyes. It hurt so bad to know that the government should be attending to these men and women who are serving our country and risking their lives everyday for us. The return we get is insane. Perhaps I put ‘we’ in there, because as families we sacrifice so much too. Funny thing is we’re supposed to get FSA and other entitlements, but after all these months it still hasn’t caught up to us yet. Will it? Well it’s the government and if it’s not for them, it’s no big deal.
You know what I did yesterday? I went and got my eyebrows waxed, pedicure, and a manicure! It gets me excited because I get a manicure probably once every 2-3yrs. I hate spending the money on that sort of thing but I did yesterday. I was speaking to the lady last night about my husband. Boy did she go all out. I had one of the best arm and calves massages since Jan. She took 45 minutes to massage my arms and another 45 minutes to massage my calves. I think I’ll be seeing her often!
I did miss service last night. It was the first time since becoming active in the church. You know, I really didn’t feel bad. As usual, after Wednesday night services we have some of the young adults come over for a couple of hours. That’s always fun! We talk, laugh, make fun of each other, and at times have discussions (long or short) about our Lord Jesus Christ. You know I really hope this doesn’t stop when Mike comes. I have enjoyed my Wednesday nights.
Yesterday was one of our young adults birthday. Happy belated birthday btw! I didn’t do anything for her. I mean I knew it was her birthday, but at the same time I really needed to rejuvenate. Needless to say; she got no cake.
Just a quick reminder before hanging this up, I’m going to post a slide show soon of all the things we’ve done since hubby has been gone. Also, I’m saying a prayer for all of you who look at this blog today. Know that you are being thought of.
As I sit here I’m wondering how interesting yesterday was. It’s almost like I don’t have any memory of what took place, sort of. I heard from my husband by email only. Did I mention that already? Shared a couple of emails and the conversation was over.
I went and mailed off package to him. Can you believe it cost me $45 to send him a box?! I left the PO with tears in my eyes. It hurt so bad to know that the government should be attending to these men and women who are serving our country and risking their lives everyday for us. The return we get is insane. Perhaps I put ‘we’ in there, because as families we sacrifice so much too. Funny thing is we’re supposed to get FSA and other entitlements, but after all these months it still hasn’t caught up to us yet. Will it? Well it’s the government and if it’s not for them, it’s no big deal.
You know what I did yesterday? I went and got my eyebrows waxed, pedicure, and a manicure! It gets me excited because I get a manicure probably once every 2-3yrs. I hate spending the money on that sort of thing but I did yesterday. I was speaking to the lady last night about my husband. Boy did she go all out. I had one of the best arm and calves massages since Jan. She took 45 minutes to massage my arms and another 45 minutes to massage my calves. I think I’ll be seeing her often!
I did miss service last night. It was the first time since becoming active in the church. You know, I really didn’t feel bad. As usual, after Wednesday night services we have some of the young adults come over for a couple of hours. That’s always fun! We talk, laugh, make fun of each other, and at times have discussions (long or short) about our Lord Jesus Christ. You know I really hope this doesn’t stop when Mike comes. I have enjoyed my Wednesday nights.
Yesterday was one of our young adults birthday. Happy belated birthday btw! I didn’t do anything for her. I mean I knew it was her birthday, but at the same time I really needed to rejuvenate. Needless to say; she got no cake.
Just a quick reminder before hanging this up, I’m going to post a slide show soon of all the things we’ve done since hubby has been gone. Also, I’m saying a prayer for all of you who look at this blog today. Know that you are being thought of.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Dear Diary???
I have not written lately because I feel like it wasn’t important to do so. Boy was I wrong!
Dear (online) diary,
How I’ve missed our chats. My husband has been gone since Jan 8th. Diary, why has it not gotten any easier? I really wish you could answer me but I do know that is impossible. Maybe I should say, Dear God.
Dear Lord,
I miss my husband. He’s been gone for quite some time now and we’re not even half way through this deployment. I’ve tried Lord; to keep myself busy; to keep the kids busy. Oh how I’ve tried. So much has happened dear God; that some has even been out of my control. I do at times wish I had the ability to conquer all but I know it’s your job. I know Jesus I don’t have to refresh your memory on what happened yesterday, but I do find the need. I had a bad day; a REALLY bad day. I found myself crying out, “I want someone to clean for me, I want someone to cook for me, I want someone to wash my clothes, I want someone to listen to me, I want to take a shower by myself without any interruptions, I want to go to bed early, I want to be able to freely to go somewhere (by myself) knowing that when I get home no one will need me…” and so on Lord. You know Dear God that I make my alter where it need be. But I just couldn’t focus. I woke up feeling that way. I woke up feeling as though I was not married. I woke up missing everything that sat in front me. I woke up feeling as though I could lose my husband in a spilt second. The reality of Iraq’s war struck a cord; and not a good one.
Help me to understand how you never feel neglected; when I know from down here people push you away. I don’t think I’m being pushed away but rather quite the opposite. I have never experienced any of this before. Women that I can say I trust. Not all but at least there fingers up now. Yet still I’m missing something. Could it be Lord, that this is all normal? Could it be one of your tests?
I’ve been a better confidant, a better mom, and a better wife; at least I think so anyway. Why am I being attacked?? Why is Satan trying to destroy what I have so solidly built? I know he can’t as long as I follow you Lord, but I’d prefer that he go away for good. I don’t want to see his ugly face. I will continue to rebuke him in your mighty name.
Please Lord, help me to grow and to become all that you want me to be. I feed off you. I learn from you. I worship you. I need the strength to get through the trails that I have had to endure and will be facing in the future. Please help me to be the wife you want me to be. Please dear Lord hear my prayer. I want to feel free and yet become all that you have planned for my future. Please take care of my husband. I really want him home. I ask a hedge of protection for him and to be spiritually fed while away from home. Help my children Lord. Give them the ability to understand my bad and good days. I can not let today be another bad day. I love you with all my heart Dear Father. In your mighty name I pray. Amen.
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