From Crystal

Camp and BBF
During Camp I thought we were going to be playing games and having fun, we did have fun, but we didn’t just play games. Every night we had service. At the beginning I didn’t feel much, but the last few days changed me. I was crying out to god asking him if he could show me his love. I wanted to feel his love and not just come to church because I was being forced to. I cried out to him for two days asking him to show me his love. Then Thursday came and everything changed. I cried and along with that crying I felt his love and felt it in my heart. My heart just became heavy and I wanted to know everything he had for me. But he spoke to me and said that he wanted me to worship and that what I was feeling right there is what I needed to show other people.
As my heart was still feeling heavy I started speaking out loud and felt everyone passing me and putting there hands on me and praying for me. Every time someone would pass I started talking louder until the pastor prayed for me. After he finished my voice was no longer there. Then a couple of other people came and prayed for me. I cried. Then I heard god say that I was going to bring other people to him and I was going to do something amazing, something bigger then I could think of. I cried and spoke in tongues.
It was different then I had thought, it was more like all the feelings I had were coming out of my mouth, loud and amazing.
After camp was over I didn’t want to leave because I thought I was probably going to loose this wonderful feeling. But as I left I realized God was always with me, sure I’ll miss the people I met and the games but those are all memories. God is much, much more then a memory.
As the weekend passed I never forgot about camp but then came the beginning of Branded By Fire. The first night of BBF I wasn’t expecting much but as we started the service, it was awesome! We danced and sang to almost every song. The music was amazing, I loved it. But, it wasn’t the music or the preaching, or the singing that mattered it was God. We missed so much at home but nothing compared to god’s love. My love for God grew bigger at BBF and he kept telling me that I was going to change people’s lives and I was going to do great things, bigger things then I could think of.
I cried and couldn’t stop crying, I kind of didn’t understand why god gave me so much and I felt like I wasn’t doing enough. He told me I was going to do amazing things but before I could do that I had to take baby steps and be willing to give up some of my friends. I wrote a couple of bulletins on Myspace expecting some of my friends to delete me but instead they talked to me more then ever before. I met more people and the people I already knew were talking to me more. I didn’t know what had happened and by the time I knew it BBF was over.
So Camp and BBF ended. But now I have a fire in me I intend to keep on burning and never let it go out. My passion for God, and spreading it through other people is what I plan on doing. So I just want to thank God for all he’s done for me these past two weeks and I’m not planning on turning back to my old life, I’m going to keep pushing forward.