The apple of his eye.

Yesterday we had yet another dinner date with a civilian contractor, who once was a Officer of the Army. We got there pretty late. My husband was offered a civilian job starting at a G12 step 6. I really can't explain that to most of you as it is sort of confusing. Let's just say we'd be well off and could make Milton our home. BUTTT I don't think the Lord wants us to settle yet. As good as the money sounds and how much we really need the money, we quickly answered no. I'd assume the Lord gave us the words to turn it down.

Plus, I like the what the military offers. We both do. We enjoy the fact that we now move every 2.5 years, the steady pay checks (even if we only make it payday to payday), the community, people from very different backgrounds, the experience my husband gets, and the fact that Mike LOVES his job.

I also know that there are negatives. I could very well lose to my husband to war. At the same time, I got a feeling that he has recently accepted Christ as his personal savior. So I feel confident knowing that if I lost him; I would soon see him again.

For some reason listening to them talk last night made me think about my dad. My dad also served (for the Army). I was thinking about Mike, then my dad, then Mike. I kept doing this through out the night. When we left I wanted to cry. I began to truly miss my dad to the point where it felt like I had just lost him. I was worried, hurting, stressed, mourning, and even more. I silently sat there with tears ever so slightly rolling down my cheeks. By the way, I even woke up with a heavy heart.

Was this how I was to be the rest of day. NO WAY! I knew I needed to hand it to God. This was my troubles and I need to give it up. I know that God doesn't want us to worry, nor does he want us to feel heavy in our hearts. I got online and low and behold was my answer. I started to read a short story about a homeschooled girl and there it was.

Philippians 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"

Verses 6-18 talk about worry, anxiety, stress. All that I felt last night and a tad bit this am.

It happened. God was watching over me and he knew that my devotion to him would overcome the worry that came on. I have now left it at the "alter". This is in Gods hands and only he knows what will happen to us and where and when will we go.

Isn't it amazing that God looks to us in such a way. He took me in his hands and relieved of my worries. I'm his child. Like any daughter to her father, I'm the apple in his eye...